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I like Digital & Social Media Technology as it pertains to film and filmmaking. I also really like movies. So I write about them.

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17 September 14

New song. Yesterday’s Tea

So this is definitely the most difficult song I’ve ever shared. Like, I know I write sad songs, but this one just makes me feel naked and nervous. It’s not exactly how I want it to be, but it’s good enough for now.

Back story:

When visiting South Carolina last year my grandmother casually said how she preferred “yesterday’s tea” because when you let it steep longer it has more flavor. Ever since I heard her say that I know it had to be a song. It took me over a year to figure out how to turn it into one. I’m not even sure if I’m happy with what I came up with relative to my expectations but it’ll do for now. 

Posted: 8:34 PM

I don’t know what to do. 

I only have two weeks to find an apartment. But if I move into an apartment I commit to a lease, most likely. And rent is becoming increasingly more expensive.

A friend offered to let me go to Buenos Aires for an extended period of time with her this winter starting in November. I’m scared of giving up my life in NYC with that big of a commitment depending on how long I decide to go, if I go at all. I’m so afraid of flying somewhere that far in general. 

This is compounded with the apartment problem. Do I look for an apartment and come back after the trip or do I sublet until November, leave, and come back without an apartment and look then? I’m also worried about giving up the best cafe job I’ve ever had. I love how much money I am making and I love being there. 

I’m also afraid of how much more I can sustain what I am doing professionally here. I feel sapped of energy, interest and ideas. But I felt this guilt and this shame and this weight from not being able to perform my job properly or forever. And from not being able to appreciate it. Everyone tells me how incredible my job is and how lucky I am but I just constantly overwhelms me as if I am taking in too much all at once all of the time. So it makes me feel worse that I can’t live up to other people’s idea of what my job is. 

I’m scared to leave New York because I know so many incredible people here and I don’t want to give it up. I’m scared of feeling like a loser who couldn’t tame the city. I think about girls who have broken my heart who are successful here and it grinds down my confidence as if I am not good enough for them, as if they saw it and I have to admit my defeat in the face of their rejection. 

I want to leave but I don’t want to leave at the same time. I just don’t want to feel this anxiety anymore and I don’t want to feel pulled in a million directions anymore. And I just wish I could find someone to share my time with who didn’t care that I felt this way who didn’t care that I was scared who didn’t care if I wasn’t more successful. Who just saw something good in me and let me be that person for once in my life. Who told me it was okay to runaway who told me it was okay to be weak or sensitive and that there was nothing wrong with being that person everyone expects you to be. Because I feel so often that’s not so much that I hate who I am more than it is that I hate what I have to do to survive. 

Posted: 7:10 PM

Boyracer.

More noisy awesome fucking bands. I don’t listen to this band enough. 

Posted: 6:59 PM

Black Tambourine - For Ex Lovers Only 

Man. This band rules. 

16 August 14

nnmprv:

Agostino Osio.

You can find me on: Instagram | Pinterest | Behance

Reblogged: wblut

29 July 14

sovvs said: Do you have a better book title for Dune?

betterbooktitles:

Yep!

Title and Redesign by Rentz Leinbach.

Reblogged: betterbooktitles

16 June 14
notational:

televandalist:

Here’s a gif of a vine of a video of a flipbook of a gif of a roller coaster. 

Aspirational. Along the lines of where I’m heading.

notational:

televandalist:

Here’s a gif of a vine of a video of a flipbook of a gif of a roller coaster. 

Aspirational. Along the lines of where I’m heading.

Reblogged: notational

10 June 14
hyperallergic:

Tyler Kline, “ZYK” (2014), animated .gif

hyperallergic:

Tyler Kline, “ZYK” (2014), animated .gif

Reblogged: hyperallergic

1 June 14

Reblogged: wowgreat

Posted: 3:11 PM

jedavu:

Artist Henrique Oliveira Constructs a Cavernous Network of Repurposed Wood Tunnels at MAC USP

Reblogged: wblut

Posted: 3:08 PM

Summer is the solo at the end of Leatherface’s Bowl of Flies 

30 May 14

Some of the men at this party are more eccentric than those we received as matches. A programmer who donated “several hundred dollars” to the Crowdtilt likens the donation to “giving $2 to a homeless person.” In an affectless voice, he analyzes the relative Asian-ness of each of my facial features, then explains his frustration with online dating: “I prefer to use reality as my platform. There’s zero latency, no lag. Do you know what lag is? When you do something online, you don’t get a response right away. Meeting women in reality — boom! — fully responsive.” As he says this, he begins to touch me. I flee. Soon thereafter, Emma Tessler points out a different man she believes to be “obsessed with” me. She offers to run interference, and I do not see him again.

I meet an angel investor who admits he gave to the Crowdtilt to butter up CEO Lauren Kay so she’d accept his money. “With these Y Combinator companies, sometimes so many people want to invest that they end up turning down money,” he explained. He’d given money to the Dating Ring to secure the chance to give even more money to the Dating Ring. He wouldn’t tell me how much he invested, but did mention a desire to buy an airplane.

Reblogged: manbartlett

18 May 14
Artist Daniel Temkin has been creating and discussing glitch art for over seven years. In that time, he’s exhibited in solo and group shows, and had his work featured in Rhizome and Fast Company, amongst other publications. For Temkin, glitch art is about the disruption of algorithms, though algorithmic art is a bit of a misnomer. He prefers “algo-glitch demented” in describing the methods, aesthetics, and philosophy of glitch.

Reblogged: rafaelfajardo

17 May 14

prostheticknowledge:

Portal 1.0

Projection Mapping installation by Raven Kwok is a minimalist animation of a ball travelling between four seperate cubes - video embedded below:

A projection mapping demonstration created using Processing. Real-time graphics was projected onto eight surfaces of four cardboard boxes, while real-time sound effects were generated using Beads. This demo served as a prior technical test for my future work.

[Link]

WHOA. 

Reblogged: notational

Posted: 9:38 AM
Kind of really into this project. 

Kind of really into this project. 

Reblogged: hipsterbait1

Themed by Hunson. Originally by Josh